EVEN NOW.

(the true point of me writing this blog begins at the "But")

Today I was driving, well, earlier I had been listening to this one cd, but then I couldn't find it. When I got to the church to do some work, I put in one and just listened. It was a Justin Rizzo Onething DVD I put onto a cd. plus "Saviour King"

But I became addicted this morning to the first little Rizzo song on there and its kind of a spontaneous "You Reign" part.. and I just was so stirred by it and just exploded with PRAISE to Him.

But as I was driving it was like each time I heard it I got new revelation. I was driving, almost time for work, and I just felt the sun so bright on my face and it was just amazing, I love Him loving on me! I love Him calling me clean and bright and I love His brightness and the sun shining warm upon my face. It's so amazing when He does that and you KNOW its Him.

Well I after I got to work, my boss had me go to the post office. I am so thankful for those opportunities to get out of the office. I ABSOLUTELY HATE COUNTRY MUSIC. (for a continuation of this that I ranted about music, go below. I cut it out because it wasn't where i was going, but i did put it at the end of this blog.)

But I popped in this same cd, and there's a part in this song that says :"Around Your throne, around Your throne even now, God, Around Your throne, around Your throne even now, twenty-four elders, four living creatures, gathered around Your throne even now, singing holy holy holy, holy holy holy is the One upon the throne. Even now, around Your throne, twenty-four elders, four living creatures, crying holy. holy, crying holy is the Lord."

And you know... it's so TRUE. As I was driving I began to have that revelation. EVEN NOW. THIS VERY MOMENT. NIGHT AND DAY THEY SING. And they HAVE sang! Even now, with all of this garbage, business, and heaviness on this earth, with everything going on, with everyone with their problems, that make it seem like the earth should just STOP until you catch your breath, with all the disappointments, with all the heartbreaks, with all the births and the deaths.. with all the happiness and joys and all the perversions and all the injustices and all the wrong-doings and the wicked prospering, and the wicked perishing, with people getting away with heinous sin, with the world ticking ticking ticking with the righteous falling, and the Godly compromising and settling..

THEY SING.

THEY SING!

THEY SING.

and they don't stop.

It's so amazing to me. They don't even give a crap about what is going on on this earth, all their focus is on IS ON HIM. It makes everything thats going on, even the most amazing and joyous... it makes it seem like NOTHING. because what they are doing IS the meaning of it all.

While we search for our lives to have meaning, while we do this and we do that and everything else... They sing. EVEN NOW. EVEN NOW. EVEN NOW. Nothing breaks their song. EVEN NOW THEY SING.

EVEN NOW THEY SING.

THE PRAISE NEVER STOPS RISING, NO MATTER WHAT TRAVESTY IS GOING ON ON THIS FILTHY EARTH!!! It all seems so futile and meaningless when you think about that!

When they're singing that EVEN NOW, AND ALWAYS, I ask yourself.. what are you giving yourself to thats completely POINTLESS? POOINNNTLESSSSS???? come on. I challenge you. :-)

(THIS IS WHERE THE BREAK BEGAN AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE WHEN MY RANT STARTED THAT I HAD TO CUT OUT AND PASTE HERE SINCE IT DIDNT GO ALONG WITH MY BLOG.. WELL I GUESS IT DOES... TO A CERTAIN DEGREE.. WITH THE WHOLE POINTLESS THING)

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music rant.:

[County Music] IS THE DUMBEST THING ON THIS PLANET, and I don't know how ANYONE listens to anything but at LEAST watered down "Christian" music- after being in an atmosphere of Him and His throne, I really seriously do not know how anyone who's experienced His presence can listen to garbage, I don't care who its by or what the stupid song is. I don't NEED anything but this. Plain and simple. I'm not looking for anything else, I have it. And i don't know, why would you want to go anywhere else for anything else. If you already have it... why would you go looking at an outside source for a certain feeling or emotion a certian type of music or band provokes (believe me, I was there) or for "inspiration" or whatever. I think we all know by now that it doesn't take listening to some band for inspiration to blast off. I know there's enternainment but WHEN will we grow up...its like it keeps going back and forth and back and forth. Just make a decision!!!!!!!!!! Either we throw out all our movies and music that doesn't please God, and then after a few months of that we get them right back out again and stuff, and keep going through the same crazy cycle.. or we just grow some faith and a face like flint and actually do what we SET OUT TO DO. ughhh.

crap in, crap out. mediocrity in, mediocrity out. "just a little bit" in... "just a little bit" out. pointlessness in... pointlessness out. Come on guys, CORN teaches us this process!!!! (haha.. ew..lol) but really! I dont care how whatever it is.

I guess it all has to do what you're after. and its a hard pill to swallow, but its true. You can tell me you know what you're doing all you want, and you're completely after Him and you understand all that,and that its unfair to say you aren't completely after the things of Him and His heart if you listen to that stuff, but let's be real. ITS NOT FAIR-- TO HIM!@ ITS NOT UNFAIR TO YOU! I wish we would all just grow HIS HEART.

When we do this cycle we obviously aren't getting something from Him right now that we ARE from whatever we're listening to. I mean, thats the obvious reason, right?

So I challenge you today, search your heart and ASK yourself WHAT am I getting from this that i'm not getting from God right now? What am I getting from this music? WHY do I listen to it? what are the reasons?

It's completely pointless.

A Comment from Hannah Rene:

I don't know....its such a battle between the MUSIC....my gosh, one day all I want is throneroom and then the next i am listening to the emotional feel-good stuff. WHY. I know its because I do get something from that that Im not currently getting from Him, but WHY, when He can SO outdo the world! I just wish He could blow us away to the point that we take one look or listen at the former things and feel like throwing up. But that leaves me hopeless, because He has done that before, and where am I now? Back where I started. Is NOTHING MEANT TO LAST?! I just want something that doesn't fade!!! He HAS blown ME away to the point I did not want ANYTHING of the world. But why did it fade and now I'm back listening to music that sounds so incredible but isn't really doing much for my spirit. ...It's CONSTANTLY a battle for me... I honestly do not believe that there is anything wrong with that music (the kind that's sort of just "there" ...) but WHAT IS IT DOING for me? That's the question I need to ask. More important what IS IT DOING FOR HIM and for eternity. I hate to think that every song I listen to like that could be ...a brick on my mansion, or just a waste of precious time. IT'S SO HARD TO BE FOCUSED. Esp. when everyone around you is in the same place you are. Wishing they could focus. That stuff sounds so good...but so does the throneroom. WAYYYY BETTER. I think if we could be willing to lay down the earthly sounds even for a period of time, we could access the throneroom on a different level and bring heaven to earth that doesn't outdo the world with THE WORLD'S OWN SOUNDS, but out-does the world with COMBATTING, with the contrast, the opposite, HEAVEN'S SOUNDS. You can't beat the world by taking worldly things and twisting them into "Christian" that just sucks and you look like a loser. But let me tell you ...heaven can so outdo the world.
AHHHH