Liepaja....

What do you even call this? (somewhat about the trip, aka my heart)

I have no idea what to write. I have no idea what to say. Or do.

Liepaja was amazing, and I HATE that I'm writing that because it sounds just like every other trip every other person would write about.

There are no words to describe the past two weeks.

All I know is God gave me much grace over there and He used me. HE USED ME!

I WILL say it all became like 1 Cor. 13. When we took off from Orlando, thats what came to my head. Because a tthe end of 1 Cor 13 it states how Love lasts forever and even words of knowledge and wisdom are USELESS when the full picture comes and when all the little words and prophecies and what have you come together to create the finality of it. To create the big picture. and thats what i felt taking off. I felt like the past year of preparation and meetings and prayer and money didnt even happen because here we go, we are GOING. I felt like none of that even mattered now because WE ARE GOING. it was a perfect example of how true that verse is. all the little pieces to the picture that were scattered throughout the past year finally came together as a whole- so all the little things disappear. all you see is the whole. HERE WE GO.

I have no idea why I'm even writing this, I really don't. I just want to get out in some form what this trip was. But I truly don't think I'll ever be able to do that.

"We speak to nations, the Kingdom is coming there to you.."

Wow. The Kingdom is in Liepaja, Latvia.

the Kingdom IS Imanuels Kristigais Centrs.

and it IS in the Russian Orthodox Church, they just don't know it yet.

We did it. We did what we set out and accomplished to do. No matter what it looked like. We did it. We actually did it. I want so much more. I crave so much more. I long for so much more.

I could sit here and write all about what God revealed to me about the language and all that stuff, and how God used me personally and what I saw come from our team and what I saw in our wonderful Liepajans and how God used them and how God changed us and changed them and allll that stuff and salvation testimonies and healings and God's presence.

But right now, I just want to be there.

Right now I just want to remember.
I might feel like writing it in a week or so when I have had time to process everything. I just can't do it right now. There's so much I dont know where to begin. and its NOT jhust because it's my "first mission trip"--- thats not why I'm being like this. Because I will NEVER LET MY LAMP GROW COLD AND DIM. I will never NOT be like this. I will never not come back to America from a trip or from living abroad and be like this. How can I not? Even though it's somewhat agony, I pray the Lord never takes it away. Because it's part of why He CAN use me over there if that makes any sense to you in the world.

God is so gracious.